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bodyetalthis is mostly a note to self: write down how we're doing memory work! ideally share it for other people!
we've been doing a lot of contextual memory work and prolonged exposure trauma therapy. this is having results—we're remembering shit, often at random times, and a lot of it is useful.
our amnesia is generally a lot more "recall failure" than "recall inhibition" (we don't have amnesia barriers so much as we have a very poorly organized memory filing cabinet), which means we get a lot less of the flashback-style recalls and memory steamrollers that are popularly discussed in multi/dissociative spaces and literature.
instead, we get a recall trigger, and then that recall tends to set off another recall, and along the way we find useful information.
for example, "we experienced online abuse" > "we were harassed in a chat room" > "wait, that chat room was one we visited early in transition and on the platform chatzy" > "we can find our old chatzy login to find more records" > "looking at the records unveiled an alias we'd forgotten using". it's handy! it's also a bit of a pain to document, and a kind of memory work we do not see jack shit about.
so, all that to say we hope to write our own resource (or at least recollection) on the subject, in no small part because we need the records to know how this worked! we are a disaster of constant recall failures!
in the meantime while we wait on making a resource, we are finding the LB Lee memory work essays somewhat handy—mostly the prep ones, because narrative memory work is both not in our current wheelhouse and seemingly not the thing we need to do at all, possibly ever. if you have the "memories are actively concealed" type of amnesia you will probably get more out of the memory work essays than we did.
but we really want to make—or find—something that better applies to our form of amnesia and memory work, because there is truly fucking nothing, which we just confirmed while retrieving the essay link and checking comments!
we've been doing a lot of contextual memory work and prolonged exposure trauma therapy. this is having results—we're remembering shit, often at random times, and a lot of it is useful.
our amnesia is generally a lot more "recall failure" than "recall inhibition" (we don't have amnesia barriers so much as we have a very poorly organized memory filing cabinet), which means we get a lot less of the flashback-style recalls and memory steamrollers that are popularly discussed in multi/dissociative spaces and literature.
instead, we get a recall trigger, and then that recall tends to set off another recall, and along the way we find useful information.
for example, "we experienced online abuse" > "we were harassed in a chat room" > "wait, that chat room was one we visited early in transition and on the platform chatzy" > "we can find our old chatzy login to find more records" > "looking at the records unveiled an alias we'd forgotten using". it's handy! it's also a bit of a pain to document, and a kind of memory work we do not see jack shit about.
so, all that to say we hope to write our own resource (or at least recollection) on the subject, in no small part because we need the records to know how this worked! we are a disaster of constant recall failures!
in the meantime while we wait on making a resource, we are finding the LB Lee memory work essays somewhat handy—mostly the prep ones, because narrative memory work is both not in our current wheelhouse and seemingly not the thing we need to do at all, possibly ever. if you have the "memories are actively concealed" type of amnesia you will probably get more out of the memory work essays than we did.
but we really want to make—or find—something that better applies to our form of amnesia and memory work, because there is truly fucking nothing, which we just confirmed while retrieving the essay link and checking comments!
