Dissociation is a bitch / Untitled Poem

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In honor of dissociation kicking my ass and my efforts at prolonged exposure trauma therapy, here is a poem/maybe future lyrics about dissociation--specifically, the moody sort of dissociation where you can't ground and are only able to feel the frustration/irritation around that.

[Untitled]

RAGE AGAINST THE DISTANCE!
KILL THE GHOST!
BURN THE DIVIDE!

I WANT TO FEEL!
LET IT KILL ME IF IT MEANS I CAN SCREAM!
PUNCH THE INVISIBLE WALL IF IT MEANS MY KNUCKLES BLEED!

I WILL BREAK THIS IF IT BREAKS ME
I DEMAND THAT IT BREAKS ME
I COMMAND IT TO BREAK ME!

MARK MY WORDS,
I WILL FEEL
I WILL FEEL
I WILL FEEL!